lazy days

I really have no excuse.  For some reason, I haven't had the motivation to do anything lately.  I keep trying to come up with excuses, but they don't seem like good ones.

For weeks now, I have just had the desire to do nothing.  Nothing at all.  Not even knit.  One of the main excuses that I use try to justify doing nothing is 'I'm so busy all the time with work and school and this and that, I deserve to have some time to myself to do nothing'.  This is not true.  Yes I am busy with work and school and this and that, but I've always been that busy.

Then I thought it's because for some reason this year I have been sick constantly.  I've had colds and the stomach flu constantly.  Once one finishes, the other starts.

So, reflecting on this, I have decided that the reason why I can't get anything done is because I am just a lazy person.  Enough excuses.  That said, I am going to make some drastic changes in the year ahead.  I'm not talking about new year's resolutions.  I'm talking about life-long changes.

Let's start with health, since that seems to be an issue lately.  I vow to start taking care of myself.  I will make time to get proper sleep and eat healthy.  I will make time to go to the gym. [but let's be real here: I'm starting with one day a week]

Next, love.  I vow to spend more time with S.  Like 'us' time, not 'we live together and see each other everyday' time.  I may even be able to schedule a date night once a week (like we used to do).

Next, finances.  I used to have a substantial amount of debt from school (who am I kidding, I love shopping...) and spent two years spending nothing and paying it all off.  I refuse to get into that mess again.  Now the focus will be on saving for the things I want in my life.  S and I are saving for a house already, but I plan on adding wedding savings (just in case) and an emergency fund.  I figure I'll need about $30,000 for a wedding and I'm going to save six months worth of expenses for an emergency fund.  I vow to live a debt-free life.

Finally, spirit.  I vow to spend one hour everyday doing something I love.  I may even schedule certain activities for certain days... not sure yet.  But I need to keep my spirit alive so maybe I can stay happy and motivated to do things that I have to do.

Enough ranting... time for action.  I will periodically update how my vows are going so as to keep myself accountable.  If anyone reads this, please keep me accountable.

...and a happy new year to all :)